Here are the books I finished reading in 2022. After I started on micro.blog.

The rest are on Goodreads.

Or sticking my size 11 in my mouth and self-sabotaging.

I was joking (kinda, maybe) to a coworker about my over-40 WYSIWYG attitude. I don’t have the patience to put up with bullshit politics, and me being me, I have always hated office politics. This isn’t high school, people. Well, it should not be. We’re here to get a job done and done well. Leave the bullshit at the door.

I think I may have blown my last interview by saying something about “big mom energy.” Frankly, this is something I’m proud of because even the people on my team who are my generation need some mothering on occasion. My big mom energy means, “are you taking care of yourself? No? What do you need from me to make that happen?”

As a manager, this way of managing is selfish, if we are being totally honest. My team is a reflection of me and my leadership abilities. I need my team to be at their best. If giving everyone hard looks (a la “mom is about to go off”), making people take PTO, sick days, and mental health days, and find a damn therapist, and do you need a ride makes that happen, so be it. Flipside— day 1– you’re all adults. I’m here when and if you need me, but I am also not going to let you suffer in silence. You set the boundaries, and I won’t be mad when you tell me to back off. Not everyone responds well to big mother energy. But I will do my damndest to cultivate an environment for safe and healthy growth. This attitude often goes against the corporate agenda.

Ok, enough about that for now. I honestly don’t know what turned them off since it was more of the same of what I put in the one-way video questions, but with more personality. I need to stop second-guessing myself. But I want to know what I did wrong!

My personality? That could be it. Know any companies looking for someone like me?

Today is just Monday-ing all over me.

First- grogginess. Yay prodrome. Finally get my ass in gear and take my meds so I can tackle yesterday and today’s to-do (because fatigue yesterday) and when I sit down at my computer…

Second - email overwhelm. Can I please go back to bed? No, ok then. Futz around and start doing things. Including calling for dryer vent cleaning because the last time was pre-pandemic and it takes 3-4x rounds for things to dry. Gotta love dogs.

Three: LI account locked up tight and they need me to prove I’m me with government ID. WTF. All I did as a recent change was add a different 2FA method. Can I stress cry yet? No? Ok, more work. Why am I so busy if I’m unemployed?

Four: after submitting ID, go to claim UI. Big red banner saying I’m missing paperwork? Excuse moi? Eff me. I have once again been “randomly selected” to go through the RESEA process. 🤐😱

And now all of my Windows mail programs are glitching. Refer back to overwhelm.

A small rainbow. I hope. Trying out BlueMail for Windows. Outlook is borked and won’t play nice with my google suite account.

Definitely time to walk Molly before the cleaning service arrives and I can lock myself in my Chamber. Which is back to resembling Depression Office.

FML. And Mondays.