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Starting over from zero

Usually, St Patrick’s Day is one of those fun American holidays with plenty of drinks and revelry. This time, because the unemployed introvert in the relationship was actually having fun and connecting with people, the extrovert who had neglected to communicate a 7am webex with Amsterdam, despite being the one to book the tickets, got increasingly angry with the introvert who connected with another introvert from her home state… wait where was this going?

Anyway, anyone with sense would not book a 4 course whiskey pairing dinner on a Sunday night if they had to present at 7 am and if I had known in the first place, I wouldn’t have suggested it because any movement between 3am -7am wakes rhe dogs and myself and it takes forever to get back to sleep. Hello, my good friend insomnia!

I will fix typos in the morning if I am not dead from embarrassment.

(3am edit, fu¢k embarrassment, I’m tired of this shit show).

Anyway, anyone with sense would not book a 4 course whiskey pairing dinner on a Sunday night if they had to present at 7 am and if I had known in the first place, I wouldn’t have suggested it because any movement between 3am -7am wakes rhe dogs and myself and it takes forever to get back to sleep. Hello, my good friend insomnia!

Oh yeah, a lot of angry words were said which caused the introvert to double down on clarification and standing up for herself which caused the extrovert to issue a ultimatum and the introvert of course said “ok” and started researching while Thing 2 of The Beagles sat at her feet making comforting noises.

→ 8:59 PM, Mar 17

Half Moon Bay Coastal Trail

Hike7

Weather: Partly cloudy and breezy

Total Duration: 1:57:48

Moving Time: 1:50:31

Total Distance: 3.77 miles

Elevation Gain/Loss: 40ft

Trail Type: Shared use — dogs must be leashed.

Personal Star Rating: ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

City/State: Half Moon Bay, CA

Trail(s): Half Moon Bay Coastal Trail

Terrain: Mostly paved

First Visit or Return: Return, but we went further than before, starting from the Francis State Campground

Companions: Molly and Scooby

Facilities/Water Availability: At Half Moon Bay Day Use area. Porta-potties at Poplar Beach

Notes:

→ 9:13 PM, Jan 30

I am feeling anything but industrious today. For some reason, I am just mentally (and maybe a little bit physically) exhausted. Too tired to read. Too tired to scroll. Too tired to drink my coffee!

I find myself wanting to just sit and stare while wondering, “where is the peace?”

I’m at the coast, the dogs have been walked, it’s finally not raining, and the sun is trying to make a full appearance beyond the clouds… and yet, I am dissatisfied. Restless. Unfocused. At odds. I hate feeling like this.

And here comes another cramp. Ok, now that I’m in the moment, I guess this feeling can be explained by hormones. I really hate not having control over my body.

This too shall pass

→ 2:01 PM, Jan 16

Everything Free Beef Stroganoff

Trust me. It tastes amazing. Even the picky teenager liked it. Beef Stroganoff over Zoodles I’ve been craving beef stroganoff the way a pregnant woman craves pickles and ice cream. But, it doesn’t fit my current dietary needs and is a trigger for every one of my daughter’s food intolerances. And then I had a… Continue reading Everything Free Beef Stroganoff

→ 1:24 PM, Nov 29

Butternut Squash with Browned Butter and Thyme

INGREDIENTS 1 1/2 pounds butternut squash, peeled, seeds removed, flesh diced into 1/2-inch pieces (about 4 cups) 3 Tbsp butter 1 Tbsp chopped fresh thyme (or 1 teaspoon of dried) To taste: Salt and freshly ground black pepper INSTRUCTIONS 1. Heat a large skillet on medium heat. Add the butter, whisking frequently. Continue to cook… Continue reading Butternut Squash with Browned Butter and Thyme

→ 1:18 PM, Nov 29

Currently Reading: Shadow Speaker by Nnedi Okorafor 📚

→ 10:09 AM, Nov 18

Comfort Zone, what’s that?

I finally signed up for Lunchclub since more than 3 people had recommended it to me. Putting my relationships in the hands of AI — ok, let’s try this.

I mean, if i am being real with myself, I have been talking to random strangers on the internet since 1993 when I first logged onto IRC. How could this be different?

Well, video for one. And not a chat room or a stream where I am “invisible“ behind my keyboard. Let’s just jump right in, shall we. Why are you here?

Surprisingly, it matched me with two people where I could be my awesomely awkward self and just go for it. Ok, so I need to work on my conversation skills. I acknowledged that from the get-go and let it be known that I was more interested in having a conversation than “networking” (should totally be a 4-letter word). Both people were incredibly gracious and we almost went over time, both times! Win!

I also managed to introduce someone new to the term “loud introvert” and holy mother of all things weird, there’s another person in a completely different industry who thinks the way I do. Maybe it’s a project manager/Gen X leader mindset. Something to think about and test.

Ok, time for weekly adult session/ date afternoon. Scheduling around dogs is way too much like scheduling around kids.

→ 7:51 PM, Nov 9

Currently Reading: Sleep No More by Seanan McGuire 📚

ok, can finally start with all my confusion cleared up.

→ 7:07 PM, Nov 2

app.thestorygraph.com/books/bd3…

I honestly don’t remember what happened in Be the Serpent either 😵 even though I apparently read it last year.

→ 12:49 PM, Oct 31

Nothing graceful about getting older

It’s finally been sunny for a few days in a row now, but chilly enough that I am completely covered up. Feeling more out of sorts than normal and realized yesterday while chatting with my chiropractor that it’s probably time to start my daily vitamin D supplements again. 10,000 IUD in case you’re wondering.

And I suppose I should start taking my fish oil again too. My joints have been cranky too.

→ 8:11 AM, Oct 19

app.thestorygraph.com/books/c27…

→ 12:51 PM, Oct 18

Currently Reading: When Sorrows Come by Seanan McGuire 📚

I read this one, but I don’t remember anything! So I’m reading it again and the next before I jump into the latest October Daye.

→ 11:56 AM, Oct 7

So, on my Long Beach trip (write-up coming eventually), I (re)learned something about myself. I love being active. I hate exercise, but I like seeing what my body can do, pushing my limits, and then pushing through them (and the activity-triggered panic attack) again. And my brain works better after a day or two of strenuous activity.

But I don’t always want to think when my body wants to sleep and recover, so I am looking for that sweet spot that doesn’t lead me back into exhaustion. I’ve done that too many times to myself. This week, on Tuesday and Thursday, I opted for a change of scenery. The dogs are in camp, so I might as well take advantage of having the whole day to myself to get caught up on classwork. (how in the hell did I get behind so quickly????)

Making myself shower and get dressed in something other than “loungewear”, get on the train, walk a bit, interact with people (in a limited capacity), and then focus with the sounds of other people studying around me. Or doing whatever, but quietly, because we are in a library.

This post has gone completely off the rails from what I thought I wanted to write. But what else is new?

Anyway, just needed to get this roundabout personal observation out of the way so I don’t readily forget it again. Exercise is good for my brain. I love my brain. I want my brain to do what it excels at. Solve problems. So … get to moving.

→ 9:30 AM, Oct 5

Finished reading: A Killer’s Game by Isabella Maldonado 📚

→ 1:13 PM, Oct 1

Currently Reading: Hallowe’en Party by Agatha Christie 📚

→ 1:10 PM, Oct 1

Whenever I decide to do a “dog-led” walk at the Arboretum, The Beagles find a new hill for us to climb. But they got a good sniff of everything and are hopefully tired enough to nap through most of my calls and classes this evening. I know I’m tired enough :D

→ 1:27 PM, Sep 27

Until next year …

→ 2:36 PM, Sep 25

silentSunday

#silentSunday

→ 6:00 PM, Sep 24

We’re sleeping here

BF took pics of me sleeping (he shared them with me, not creepy after all these years) because the pups were trying to snuggle into me. Cute except you can see that I’m having a bad night. Face is tense and frowning instead of relaxed.

Apparently it was Molly at first — nose to nose with me — and then Scooby came up from the foot of the bed to push his face between Molly’s stomach and mine, making sure his eyes were covered. This dog has come a very long way from waking up at crack of pre-dawn.

→ 7:07 AM, Aug 31